An Odd Place

How could you not be motivated and moved when you read proverbs 29:18..."Where there is no vision, the people perish..." As i was talking to a great friend the other day (Dan Gould) he mentioned something about a holy restlesness. A place where you are motived and moved by discomfort, a place where you long for something more even though you're where God has you now. I'm there. God has been molding me, shaping me and ultimately allowing the freedom to explore who he has created me to be and inronically in the midst of God allowing this he has created this holy discomfort. For the first time i know what energizes me, i can identify and schedule these things into my life, i know what keeps me going. In the same token, i can identify for this season the things that drain me, leave me less than energized or resonate as simple tasks. So that sounds like a great place to be, right? I feel more on the understanding end of discomfort, more restless than holy. Vision is hardest at this point in my life, the struggle to maintain commited to what is at hand, while knowing something needs to press forward. Its season's like this that lead me ultimately frustrated and torn. This would be an easier season if my current vision, the one i'm living in was strong..but its not. This would be easier if i woke up and could see my purpose for today over my purpose for the future, but i cant seem to shake it. I have a current vision that closes in on perishing, and i have a holy discomfort about this. Next season is coming, but its overtaking me. I'm heading towards rough waters, at some point my day is going to collide where i begin to create the momentum to act on what God is doing but have to maintain a dying vision in the process. I have to leap not alone, but with staff and volunteers beside me carrying the souls of students on our backs, its a dangerous leap anytime you make it and its coming around the bend. Half of me says with a smirk, thanks a lot God, the other half is running towards it.